The world is a book, and those who do not travel read only a page.

Too much work, too little play

2009-07-30T21:46:00.000-07:00

This is what summer is made of, being too busy with boring things like work and exciting things like Harry Potter 6 and 115 degree weather in Las Vegas.

I spend a lot of time reading and sorting mail and taking the people in Riverside I will see within two monthes into serious consideration. I like being friends with most everybody. But some people, I am discovering, are just weird. Not the cool, they could be a memorable character in a story weird, the whenever we are alone I feel a bit queasy weird.

I also want to be more articulate. I want to stop defending myself hours later because, although I want to be a writer, sometimes I am really clumsy with words.

But besides all that, this is just a mixture of things necessary and maybe unecessary, but a great part of my thoughts these past weeks.

Un.

I miss Croatia in a desperate way. I miss every day of my trip to Europe last summer. I would gladly put up with the heat that felt like a suffocating weight of steaming wet towels just to see Dubrovnik all over again.

Deux.

Quite the bad ass in the sixth film, I really can't wait to maybe possibly hopefully accidently run into Daniel Radcliffe in England. He is still very attractive and so intelligently cool it makes my teeth hurt.

Trois.

An item for my ongoing wish list, not that another pair of sunglasses is something I really need. Then again these Jean-Charles de Castelbajac shades are necessary in order to look classy. I just need to shell over $80.

Quatre.

Naturally Helena Bonham Carter (who I adore) would land the most wicked roll in her hubby's adaptation of Alice in Wonderland. I am so fascinated by her. She is so good at being dark, it gives evidence to that notion that sometimes it's good to be bad.

Cinq.

Stumbling around the internet, I discovered the Venice Biennale, an art exhibition that takes place every two years or so. I really want to attend someday because it seems like the most bizarre and exhilerating experience. Judging by the photographs it's a place where one literally lives art.

Lastly, I am currently reading The Shadow of the Wind by Carlos Ruiz Zafon. I am loving it and recommend it to anyone who is enchanted by Barcelona, storytelling similar to Gabriel Garcia Marquez or simply the intoxicating honesty of romance in the early 1900's.

Bon nuit.

How likely is it that people eat quesodillas in England?

2009-07-01T14:15:00.000-07:00

I finally created a summer-y to do list so that I do not spend all my free monthes working and watching Office reruns. Some of these wonderful things include-

1. Saving up for this little place known as England.

I got accepted into the study abroad program in England and now I just have to anxiously await to see which school they are going to actually place me in. My first choice is University of East Anglia. I.really.want.to.go.to.East.Anglia. It's beautiful and the classes sound outrageously fantastic.
This is what the dorms look like!:

2. Je ne veux pas oublier comment parler du français!!

I need to watch more french films so that I won't get into french4 next quarter and be like: "Que???" I watched Volver starring Penelope Cruz the other night and loved it. It was in spanish, which was great, but that didn't really help in the french department.

3. Disneyland, I need to see you!!!

My brothers and I are trying to plan a three day trip to Disneyland. We used to go every summer and apparantly everyone who is someone has a year round pass. Not me ]: But I will somehow get there before going back to school!

4. I think if I can keep a fish alive, a plant would not be all that difficult

I desperatly want to have multiple potted plants and I don't quite know why. My cousin is currently growing vegetables and my grandma plants tomatos...as the only vegetarian in my family, I really think I should be leading this garden nonsense.

5. My next obsession??? We'll see!

I plan to watch all the Star Wars films because I have yet to watch any of them. Which I realize is embarrasing since I am discovering just how many people live for that shit. I guess I have spent toooo much time loving Harry Potter (HP7 will be filming while I am over in England during spring!!!!!!)

First week of Summer

2009-06-20T20:33:00.000-07:00

Sorting mail and indexing invoices is not as out of control exciting as it may sound. Nevertheless, it pays, I sometimes feel like I am living The Office and it's located in La Jolla so I can smell the ocean all day.

One thing I have done a lot of so far, notwithstanding obsessivly watching The Office and taking my dog for a walk, is getting around to those movies that I constantly say I want to see. Such as...

Rachel Getting Married

I must commend Anne Hatheway for her performance, she proved that she deserved her Academy Award. Her character took on a life unlike any previous rendevous in her career, especially Princess Diaries.

Also, I just REALLY want my wedding to turn out exactly as the one in the movie did. I mean the blue cake??? The constant ecclectic music selection in the background, the outside tents and why not, I'll take the groom as well!

The Boy in the Striped Pajamas

Sure I cry easily when watching touching movies, but I seriously was not anticipating the amount of sobbing that took place on my part at the end of this film. Like I surprised myself. The ending is nearly unbearable. The fact that the film is a childs point of view during the holocaust is already a tell tale sign that your heart is just going to ache and ache.

A quick synopsis: A little boy named Bruno is the son of a very involved German soldier who moves his family into a concrete mansion just a forest away from a concentration camp. Bruno, whose favorite past time is adventuring, comes across a little boy named Shmuel, a barbed wired fence between them. They build a friendship and Bruno, at eight or so, struggles with the heroic image of his father that he once had and the brutal reality fed to him by a just as confused Shmuel.

Please, please watch it. You may cry but it's completely necessary.

Next....
Things I find absolutly adorable:

1. This wedding (cup)cake

I guess my mind has really been on the big day, which is quite normal I think seeing as I am single and fear I will end up alone with thirteen million cats (I kid, kind of.) But seriously, if my cake doesn't get made by A. my mother or B. Duff from Charm City cakes, I am totally stealing this idea.

2. Dwayne Wade as you have never seen him before

I know, I know, give it a break, he already has two sons (both names starting with the letter Z, cool!) and he's like completely preoccupied with being all sweaty on the basketball court but I just refuse to stop being so obsessed. I am thinking this would make a great In-the-middle-of-the-summer-just-because type present!!

3. Childhood, I miss you

Do you remember dressing up your thumb prints in elementary school?? Because I most certainly remember LOVING it. Just to begin with it is a childs thumb print, it's nearly impossible not to go awwwwww after a little top hat and moustache or poka dot dress and a smile is added.

4. A new pet possibility, since baby pandas are kind of hard to find for keeps

I know they aren't considered that warm and cuddly, and I used to never be much of a reptile person but lately, I don't know, chameleons are quite appealing. I mean they change colors. And just look bad ass.

5. Up!

Just go see it. You will nearly throw up because it is so darn cute. And I laughed as well as teared up an embarassing amount. Well done Pixar, well done.

Recently...
- I went to the Mira Mesa Farmers Market and learned about the raw almond conspiracy, ate sea urchin and met a man who farms jelly fish(???).
- Chased after my brother because he was screaming FUCK on this path behind our City Council building because a swarm of bees were unrelentlessly showing him how pissed off they were that he fell into their bush.
- Watching my brothers basketball team get whooped because the other team were all over 6 ft, were sponsored and had at least five coaches (one wearing a business suit, over kill for a seventh grade team??).
- Went to the padres game?? I know, baseball hahahaha
- Ate really delicious pizza with soy cheese, avocado, sundried tomatos and mushrooms from my new fave place Z Pizza.

Bon nuit!

"I was intelligent enough to make up my own mind. I not only had freedom of choice, I had freedom of expression." - Amy Tan

2009-06-09T17:11:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time...I wanted to be an artist. Before I even knew how amazing writing was, I figured I would somehow live successfully drawing and painting all day. My grandmother was a spectacular artist, my favorite painting of hers was of a single swan in a vast amount of water and everytime I visited her house I would come up with a new story for that world made of paint. So I guess writing stories was not to far fetched??

Anyways, art is literally everywhere, granted, if you know just how to look for it.

1. Art on the streets

One of my favorite parts of experiencing Europe was the constant discovery of aritistic expression on the street. No matter how subtle, it makes the everyday just a tad more interesting, if not more colorful.

(Burning man)

(Says: This is for anyone who misses anything)

(I find masks so enchanting yet really frightening)

2. Aesthically pleasing movie scenes.

The South American landscape of Up! gave me goosebumbs, Memoirs of Geisha is like overdosing on color and the images in Pirates of Carribean are always enjoyable, even though there really is no need for more.

Leonardo DiCaprio in the beginning of Romeo + Juliet.

A Little Princess
"Magic has to be believed. It's the only way it's real."

James and the Giant Peach. I love!! Except for the aunts still really scare me.

Sophia Coppola's Marie Antoinette. Deliciously beautiful, beautifually delicious.

Everything is Illuminated starring Elijah Wood and based off of Jonathan Safron Foer's amazing novel. Read it, watch it and then read Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close.

Finding Neverland. Johnny Depp, Kate Winslet, you have the whole summer, watch it, cry, fall inlove and then watch it again.

The opening of Benjamin Button.

3. Tattoos

Yes mom, I am going to get one.

mmmm. his arms

4. Post Secret

The perfect combination of sincere words and images.

(Sooo true hahaha)

5. Marc Johns

One of my favorite comedic artists.

Soap box moment

2009-06-04T14:55:00.000-07:00

A lot of time passed since the last time I was completely insulted. Maybe a lot of time passed since I allowed someone to completely insult me. Nonetheless, sometimes being apart of a school so well known for it's diversity I feel so very ostrasized.

An identity crisis, when I get ridiculed for doing things "so white" but when I reach out, hope to learn more about differences I am a poser, I am trying too hard, I get insulted. Look. I know histoy, I know cruelty, and I know life is not fair but I am trying. And if you continue to persecute those who try to make things better, even if they are "so white", you can expect the repercussions of a past repeating itself.

L-O-V-E

2009-06-02T16:52:00.000-07:00

I have really been obsessed with love lately which makes no sense since: 1. I am not in love and 2. I am still not in love. But regardless, a few of the following things produce goosebumps on my arms and maybe if you are in love you will enjoy them as well.

1. Please watch this even if you are not a fan of Def Poetry Jam, even if you think this guy has ridiculous hair. It's worth it. It is so very worth it.
This Type Love by Shihan.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c5WgmbMW7Ek

2.
I wish I could claim I made this, but I just found it. Romantic, nonetheless.

3.
Adorable? Incredibly convenient? I want one?...although I need a lover first ;]

4.
Tres romantique. I really admire public displays of affection, sometimes. Not always though, sometimes it's just awkward. Especially in elevators.

5. Songs for those who know just how love hurts when it makes no sense:

Your ex Lover is Dead by Stars
There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

The Nicest Thing by Kate Nash
I wish you'd hold my hand
When I was upset
I wish you'd never forget
The look on my face when we first met

6. Oh, you mean the first time my seventh grade eyes found Daniel Radcliffe. Instant love. Eight years later I am still in love and have seen him naked.

(because it is cut off, it says: Ah, love at first sight. When you see someone so beautiful that you forget they aren't there just for you)

If you have yet to discover A Softer World, you need to ch-ch-check it out. The link is: http://www.asofterworld.com/

7. A tiny bite from a play/story I am still trying to write successfully:

I knew we were going to get along when I leaned in to examine his emaculate beard and discovered he smelled of curry and cigarettes. Let's face it, we were both obviously lost. Not in the sense that we couldn't figure out where our bodies had ended up. Just that we were freedom praising strangers willing anyone to catch us by the hand or lips.

8. Lastly, because I adore languages:
- I love you (english)
- Je t'aime (french)
- Anee oheivat otkha (hebrew, sounded out)
- Te amo (spanish)
- Ti amo (italian)
(all that I know as of right now)

It's time to take a nap

2009-05-27T16:59:00.000-07:00

5 things that made the past week an epic one:

1. Chelsea's Didier Drogba. He's from Cote D'Ivoire. Two elements of excellence: Africa and France. Oh yeah, and soccer ;]

2. Boba tea. Except not because it makes you so unbelievably full. But I believe the best kind is Peach green tea...so delicious. Life Cafe knows what's up...except never buy two in a row or you will wake up the next morning still disgustingly full. Kind of amazing.

3. Glee. Thanks to Noelle I am now obsessed with this new show on Fox. Except the season doesn't offically start until the fall. Oh well, I can just watch the pilot on repeat!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1UMl9sC5v0A

4. This video about Lamar Odom's obsession with sweets. Despite the fact that he is going to loose all his teeth I think he is kind of adorable...like a child in this clip.
http://espn.go.com/video/clip?id=4210030

5. The French film: Inch'Allah Dimanche. We are watching it for our final but I really liked it. Very dramatic, but funny and extremely heartfelt. There are always subtitles so I recommend this film even for those not learning french.

First and foremost

2009-05-20T20:17:00.000-07:00

I am slightly inlove with my nonfiction workshop, and slightly repulsed? confused? constantly looking at people thinking: ?????

Like today. Talk about tension that you can cut with one of those infomercial knives that never bend or break. The story we were workshopping had this brilliant conversation involving sexual innuendos. Because you can't read the story I will just divulge that it was all about butt sex.
So. This guy that wears his shirts tucked in, jeans up to his chin raises his hand and goes:
"I think that maybe Michael (one of the characters) is gay and that ties back to his possibility of having HIV"
And unfortunatly he thought he had said something so incredibly insightful that he was beaming. That didn't last for long. Because the teacher began to itch and shift and we were all staring at our desks. The teacher wasn't going to say: "Look shitface your comment is implying that the only possible way someone can get HIV is if they are gay because there is no way some trampy tramp can be spreading HIV. And you just ruined the laugh we were having over the innuendo by making it political. Way to fucking go".
But she was definitly giving off that vibe.
I felt like I swallowed a brick.

Nonfiction is nuts. It's real so at home when you are looking at the piece and it's about some guys stripper girlfriend, or someones parent passes away, you have to look them in the face the following day and say: "I liked it but I felt there was no narrative arc".

But that is besides the point.

Je veux aller en France demain. S'il vous plaît? Je mangerais fromage et boirais du vin. Beaucoup du vin. Je parlerais en francais avec les hommes de beaux. Les hommes de beaux qui sont noir aussi [:

Wouldn't it be splendid if I owned this french toast stencil. Ha!

I watched three (three!) soccer games yesterday. Intense, man. First basketball now soccer. Who am I? Then Noelle and I drank far toooo much boba tea at Life Cafe. I woke up still full. Repulsive, but wonderful!

I get nervous when people try to talk to me in french

2009-05-16T19:16:00.000-07:00

The days are passing too quickly, yet time is dragging its feet. I am ready for sunburns and peach iced tea and jobs that will equate to money which will go towards England which will hopefully accept me in the spring.

Monday:
Drank coffee (thank goodness). Lounged in the grass (the A&I grassy knoll??) with Noelle and Josh to watch The Final Inch. The bugs loved me, seven exceptionally itchy bites.

Tuesday:
Bryce and I ate an obnoxiouslylarge amount of pasta for lunch. I met Sanam, she is very nice and later that night we sat on the concrete of Rey's patio and listened to Pilf tell us about politics, despite his drunkeness, despite the fact that he is learning english.

Wednesday:

Oh my goodness, I slept for thirteen hours. I can't believe I fell asleep at 7:30pm and slept for more than half a day.

Thursday:
An incredibly culture-filled day which allows Noelle and I to stick up our noses and be somewhat snooty. We went to the Agent Orange exhibit downtown. The photography was beautiful but very sad. I think it is important for people to learn more about the birth defects in both Vietnam and America that came out of the spraying of agent orange.

Then we ate at Chili's (maybe not has culture-esque) but we drank obscene amounts of water and they offer black bean burgers. Except the waiter joked that being a vegetarian made me weird.

Next we trash talked Dike's favourite soccer team using chalk just in front of his building. I don't know anything about soccer, I just haven't used sidewalk chalk in years.

We chilled in Josh's apartment eating delicious margarita pizza, watched a little bit of Capote, than one of the best Office episodes (Michael: What's so funny? Pam: You had to be there. Michael: Oh hahah, it was a geography joke) and then the rest of Capote.

So good. And so haunting. One of my favourite parts was when Capote read a piece of the novel In Cold Blood to an audience. Sometimes I really enjoy hearing the story from the author's voice. They are the only ones who know exactly how it is supposed to sound.

Friday:
Discovered the exotic underground pet market because Bryce and Laurel's friend Jake apparantly "has connections". There are baby foxes with ears that are just out of control. I want a baby cheetah. That stays a baby cheetah. Laurel, Sanam and I really laughed for a long time. Just laughed and laughed and hurt because bodies sometimes don't know how to handle that much laughter.

Sanam and I left with Bethel and Stormy and eventually Desel to climb into the random spot of woods somewhere on campus. We set up for a surprise birthday and I found people who also watch The Game on BET. hahahah.

Saturday:
Sanam and I watched the school play, A Servant of Two Masters. I actually really liked it. I love italian names and it was physical comedy. Now I am going to not leave my apartment for the rest of the weekend so I can write masterpieces.

BUT FIRST watch this video of Shihan at the Def Poetry Jam. I am still inlove with it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c5WgmbMW7Ek
and consider this quote:

Seedless grapes that aren't actually seedless

2009-05-11T21:50:00.000-07:00

Cinco de Mayo. What can I honestly say? Maybe: “Never regret. If it’s good, it’s wonderful, if it’s bad, it’s an experience.” (Victoria Holt). I have a lot of experiences under my belt.

My mom took me grocery shopping over the weekend. My refrigerater now houses a bag of spinach the size of an obese baby and I will not be running out of planet sized seedless grapes that aren't actually seedless.

The most important part of this post is:
END POLIO NOW!!!
This week is Polio Awareness and if your first response to this is a. I thought polio was already eradicated, b. What the hell is polio, or c. Why should I even care? You should attend some of the events.
- Tonight they screened the documentary The Final Inch. I recommend seeing it on your own time if you missed it. The volunteers working to eradicate polio is the largest non-military army.

- From 5-9pm on Tuesday you have the opportunity to eat yummy frozen yogurt and support the cause at Mumbles. Do it, I mean seriously, it's just down the street.

- Check out www.rotaractucr.org for more information.

Ballin': Evan wore pink wrists bands since he was playing on mother's day.

And an out of control water balloon:

Where was one of the sexiest men ever on a Saturday Evening?

2009-05-04T20:22:00.000-07:00

Common @ UCR. Holy shit.

I own the same Obama wrist band. His facial hair was phenomenal. His voice, his arms, geez. I think 08-09 kicked a lot of ass considering I saw Daniel Radcliffe naked in New York and Common looking supa fly in the dingyness of R-side. Oh yeah and I am probably going to be in England next year?

I am reading Hemingway in the Spring time weather (all I need is a beret and a spot of tea and I will be a complete cliche). We are learning how to discuss vacationing in French. It makes me itch to just travel forever. Je voudrais visiter l'Afrique, Israel et l'Inde.

I am obsessed with these wonderful things lately:

Dreadlocks

More so on boys than girls. It's just sexy. Too me at least.

Strawberries

Delicious. I am 100% for these babies when Riverside heat threatens to kill. But I can't afford to throw down $5 for all but ten of them at the farmers market.

Kanye West and Amber Rose (Still)

They are aesthetically pleasing. Even if he is an asshole. Most aesthetically pleasing people are assholes.

Kitten babes

My birthday is October 30th...I want one. I would especially like a black kitty with white paws. I want to name him Shel, after Shel Silverstein.

Kittens that can eat babes

This kills me. How does a cat reach this size? Geez, it's nearly a lion.

Lastly this quote
"My way of joking is to tell the truth. It is the funniest joke in the world."
-George Bernhard Shaw.

What one in the morning brings...

2009-04-30T01:28:00.000-07:00

Witnessed a poor girl get far too drunk. Now I am home and writing and waiting without patience for Saturday to arrive so I can see Common. People don't quite understand how amazing it is that he will be on this campus.

I also want someone to buy me a baby gorilla? Is that so much to ask? I feel lonely without a pet, especially one as adorable as a gorilla babe.

My week in five things

2009-04-26T18:17:00.000-07:00

1. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yZgsnp-ORec

Told a boy that he looked like Salim from Slumdog Millionaire. Complete drunken lie, but it made him smile and besides Jamal is more of my favourite. I watched Dev Patel's first television interview on David Letterman. He is charming and his expression after watching a clip from the movie is adorable.

2. Earth day!

Bought lemons and oranges from the Farmer's market (the berries were exceptionally expensive). Also bought two books, one by Hemingway, the other Capote. Five lady bugs landed on me. They gave away free plants which I didn't take since I do not have any land to let it grow in.

3. Columbus Short

He is sexy. I watched the movie Accepted for the second time in my life and realized I would gladly watch it for a third time just to see Columbus Short. He is joining the category of Unbelievably Good Looking Black Men. Along with Dwayne Wade, Taye Diggs and of course Common.

4. Where I will hopefully live next year

I am working on my applications for studying abroad in the UK. The school I want to go to is University of Kent, Canterbury. Ninety minutes from London, two hours by train from Paris. I am so ready to go already.

5. The Story of my Life

So usually I avoid elevators because it is nearly impossible for it to end without awkward repercussions. This week, walking up to my apartment I saw this guy that lives on my hall stepping into the elevator so I slowed down so that either I could get the next elevator or just take the stairs. Except he must have seen me because he held the door open until I got there. Very sweet. Then for whatever reason he assumed my floor number (the wrong one) and then we didn't say anything. Because I am bad at starting conversations.

I really am tired of eating dinner alone.

Je suis juif [:

2009-04-17T23:06:00.000-07:00

I visited Swan (my old drama teacher) and finally felt appreciated for undergoing the grad student Shakespeare in Film seminar last quarter with two twenty nine year olds and four other classes. I described a japanese adaptation of Macbeth and he immediatly knew which film I was talking about and in my mind I was like 'Finally! Someone knows what I am talking about and doesn't think I am insane for spending countless hours on Shakespeare!'

I am ready, ready to leave the country for a time and learn how to live differently. I finally made it out of the "Poway bubble" but I most certainly do not want to become a fly caught in amber on the campus of UCR. The college I enjoy, but the surrounding city will not stop creeping me out.

I am nearly over my sickness. Last week was awful, I lost my voice again, struggled to stay awake and thought my brain was going to seep out of my ears. I think the urgent care presciption of these HUGE pink and blue pills have helped speed up the get well process.

I am working on my jewish-ness. I went to two passover dinners and met some more jewish people. Of course my parents are proud. Apparantly you can replace the shank bone on the traditional sedar plate with an avocado pit if you are a vegetarian. hm..cool.

Common in Riverside?????

2009-04-07T18:46:00.001-07:00

Ugh. So sick. I am done with this cold/fever/uncomfortable amount of used tissues in my trash can.
Found out that Common is coming to UCR for Spring Splash! Think of that one celebrity/musician/whatever that you obsess over due to their talent and good looks. That is what Common is to me. Ohmygosh.

Evan's Bar Mitzvah was bangin'. He did so well during the service and a lot of people were confused because he doesn't look thirteen. He doesn't look like he is just now becoming a man in the Jewish community due to his height and man-child persona. His party rocked. Bought a Dwayne Wade jersey (the most money I ever spent on something sports related).

I am currently hoping to get more involved in the Hillel on campus. So far so good, I have two different Passover dinners to attend. I wanted to prepare Passover dinner for my family, something I watched my Gramps do when I was younger, but the holidays just creep up on me. I can't wait to eat macaroons.

Free smoothies at Juice it Up!!!!

2009-04-01T18:05:00.000-07:00

I sincerely recommend: Santaland Diaries by David Sedaris. You might laugh your ass off. Or learn a great deal about human behavior around the holiday season.

I kind of hate owning a car. I know I really should not say that but I really do not like the responsibility of finding a place for the automobile at all times. Especially when Glen Mor charges almost a $1,000 per quarter for rent but does not include parking. Ridiculous. Oh and I fell down this hill because I was trying to find a short cut from the Lothian parking lot (the only lot with available spots). I really hope no one saw. But someone probably did, and laughed.

Visited with Laurel in the Commons. We drank tea for ten minutes and talked about guys who send topless pictures via text messaging.

Ran into Ernie (twice!) which was very nice since we never ever see each other on campus. But there is this one guy who talks to himself that I always see. This girl sat down on her skateboard and was sliding down the big hill by Pentland, right in the center of the road. I really wanted to shout: "You look fucking stupid!" But I didn't. Seriously, the road is meant for the cars, you are not on a Disneyland ride.

Sometimes I really miss the people in my life that I don't know all that well. Something about the mystery, the potential. Sometimes I really enjoy growing older, having the experiences and the people who bring about those experiences. At the same times, when I pass places or people that were familiar when I was a complete year younger, I wish time had not elapsed to roughen my edges. No wonder so many writers publish coming of age stories.

I know all the employees at starbucks, but only have a crush on one.

2009-03-31T21:21:00.001-07:00

Interesting day. I thought my first class was in UNLH so I left at the utmost last minute and realized far too late that my class is actually in the stats building...and I have no idea where that is so I went to starbucks. I studied my french outside because the weather was so perfect.

We are learning about french restaurant culture. They don't eat their salad (la salade verte) until after the main course. My new favorite word to pronounce is: des petits pois, which is peas...I love those too. Je suis vegetarienne, je ne mange jamais la viande. (I am a vegetarian, I never eat meat).

While I sitting on a bench near the bookstore, drinking peach tea and waiting for class to start, Stephen, from creative writing (the boy who went to South Africa and eats paper from time to time) came by. I watched his bag while he went into the store and then we chatted. He bought Ulysses by James Joyce...whoa. Then his friend came by and Stephen introduced him by saying "he's better than you, he's better than most people"...I was like Oh really. Because I don't believe he knows me well enough to make that assertion. He talks with his eyes wide open. And he sat super casual, with his arm behind me and a leg bobbing over one knee. His friend had bad teeth.

Geo 4 was whatev. I am worried after I finished with this course I will constantly be natural disaster paranoid. We have two professors. One is currently in China adopting a child.

After class I took my car and managed to get incredibly lost. Sometimes I really dislike my flaws, like lack of direction. I ended up taking the wrong exit, stopped at a Jack and the Box and asked this guy in a military uniform how to get back to UCR. I didn't tell him I was a student there, that would be just embarrasing.

Went grocery shopping. I bought grapes and apples and des petits pois!

I really do love spring

2009-03-30T20:10:00.000-07:00

With the exception of allergies...which I believe affects me greatly. Around this time last year I lost my voice and was plagued with a runny nose. Deja vu. I can't even talk. Some say I sound squeeky, others think it's sexy...I'm finding it very embarrasing.

Intro to Nonfiction Workshop

So the people are already revealing their strange colours...which is wonderful since I am writing a play on the differences of personality within the writing community. One guy, when responding to what his hobbies are, replied: my shotgun. He shoots pigeons....who does that? They carry messages! And over populate Venice. I am pretty sure I am going to enjoy this workshop, seeing as our first assigned reading is David Sedaris.

Francais Trois

LOVE my teacher. She's enthusiastic and patient and wore the cutest dress...and managed to memorize all of our names within the first day. Of course when I went to introduce myself my french came out even worse than my english because of my throat. I have a feeling she will make me fall even more inlove with this language.

Geo4: Natural Disasters

I have a feeling I will be spending many hours in the map room in the Science library. The class already seems kind of dull, but on the upside once I am through with this course I should be able to buy a house successfully based on my knowledge of earthquakes, floods and the like. Sweet. Also the map curator lady was pretty adorable, she went off on all these excited map related tangents and then would apologize.

Oh yeah and my refund check has still not appeared in my mailbox. I need that money for important things like books...and credit card bills...and new shoes (because I am very tired of wearing the same flip flops everyday-even through winter!).

By the way, this is news to me....but Tyra Banks and Seal once dated???? What!?? And then he traded up for the next best model??? hahahaha but I actually love Heidi Klum and Seal together.

Back to School ]:

2009-03-29T22:16:00.000-07:00

Thursday I spent the day hiking and rock climbing and baking cupcakes with Jaci and Cristina.
Apparantly Cristina owns one of Hitler's lemon pressers. Her grandfather (I believe) had a friend who was one of the American soldiers who inspected Hitler's house after the suicide, and he stole a few things. Like a lemon presser? Imagining Hitler with any utensil not meant for mass murder is hard to comprehend.

Cristina took us to this amazing trail in Penasquitos. It was so green along the way (although apparantly ticks are a possibility) and we ended up at this waterfall of sorts. We jumped from rock to rock across this stream and climbed atop the highest boulder. So quiet, and the perfect weather.

The things that come up in conversation on a hike are always so random and interesting. We talked about our parents' pasts. Cristina's mom hitchhiked and remembers very few things do to drugs. My dad was cheated on by his wife on their one year anniversary. We also discussed cannabalism (and odd subject considering we were in such a deserted place) and which Disney princesses we like and do not like. Jaci thinks Jasmin is a slut. They tried to tell me that Nala from Lion King is supposed to be the African American princess, but I don't by that. Mulan is alright, and Cindrella whined a lot.

I cannot wait till Tuesday, I am definitly buying Slumdog Millionaire on DVD. Just thinking about watching it again is giving me goosebumps.

Things I sometimes wonder:

2009-03-25T22:02:00.000-07:00

1. If I will ever get shot.
2. If I will ever be in a bank that gets robbed.
3. If I will ever fall inlove
4. If Calvin will make it home from Iraq. If he will someday have thirteen tattoos instead of twelve.
5. If I will ever make it to Russia.
6. If I will ever be as honest with my feelings towards someone as I was senior year.
7. If I will visit every state in the U.S.
8. If I will get trapped in an elevator.
9. If I will ever punch someone in the nose. And if they will deserve it.
10. If I will ever attend the Tony Awards.

I slept till 12pm. Geeeez

2009-03-24T21:14:00.000-07:00

It's the truth, Ruth:

Washing a car on your own is exceedingly difficult when the soap drys on one half of the car before you can rinse.

He is actually not interested, or worth it, or good at his favourite sport.

Dreams about hiding from terrorists in a treehouse do leave an impression.

I hate dishes.

I break my grandmothers heart because I don't like boys within my race and I am going to leave the country.

Brussel sprouts are good but smell like socks. Socks that Lebron James wears for a week straight.

Slumdog Millionaire deserved every award it recieved and I have a new favourite accent.

Strawberries, so worth buying even when you are broke.

And when I say broke, I don't mean Mommy and Daddy willing to pay off your bills, I mean twenty dollars in your bank account, and your own credit card which you are still paying off.

I found a bottle of gaterade, a baby picture of Sarah and a lot of dust under my bed.

The constant talk about the economy has finally hit me because for the first time when someone asked me what I want to do with my life and I said right plays, I actually felt embarrased rather then indignant when they gave me that pitying look.

Lastly, I am so tired of that look. I am not a child, I love writing and I may not have any idea what the hell I am doing, but honestly, do you?

Spring Break, at last

2009-03-22T00:11:00.000-07:00

Last night was the epic birthday party of Noelle, Tyler and Adam. I had fun. Well actually I am assuming I had fun because in the pictures I look happy. It was that kind of night. But somehow nothing of mine ended up lost or broken, which is a constant and unnecessary worry of mine.

Everyone leaves. You know, that just get up and go. I had a best friend move away almost every year when I was in elementary school. Why am I never the one who gets to walk away first? Soon.

I am home at last and winter quarter is finished at last. I went to a Bar Mitzvah this evening just because my parents were going and hey, I had nothing else to do. I can't wait for Evan's. There is nothing like a Posner Bar Mitzvah.

Also. If someone were to say to you: I am going to thrash your bones, how would you react. I was repulsed. Finally. Because unfortunatly that verb 'thrash' has been used by this person before. Not sexy, man.

Too bad the font is too small but it reads: I should have been brave enough to just ask your name, Instead of screaming "I cannot contain my lust" Now you probably think I'm a creep.

FYI I am that kind of girl, I like lust over thrash. Gentlemen instead of womanizers. And that's all I am going to say on that.

Watched: I'm Not There and Mr. and Mrs. Smith. Both good for very different reasons. Brad and Angelina really are pretty foxy. And I need to learn more about Bob Dylan to understand the movie in a more fulfilling way.

Good night [:

Poli Sci Final can suck it!

2009-03-17T21:41:00.000-07:00

I need someone who likes the beef but not the brocoli.
Someone who eats the cheese off the pizza, and leaves the dough.
Someone who won't mind my coffee addiction because I will promise to not mind the meat they eat.

In the car in the Starbucks parking lot my dad says with a slight laugh: "I knew you would be more liberal than me. That's scary."

My new favorite song is Day N Nite by Kid Cudi and Come Around by Collie Buddz.

I am now reading: A Long Way Gone by Ishmael Beah. It makes me feel incredibly selfish for ever saying "my life sucks" or "life is rough". It's a memoir, Ishmael was a boy soldier in Sierra Leone.

I dislike how much time I spend alone, I need to get out. But I do not know where to go. If running away was cheap, I would already be gone.

Oh, and I want these Marc Jacob shoes. Badly. Although I have no idea why, really.

Finals week, so overrated

2009-03-16T18:31:00.000-07:00

Mondays. They really do bum me out.

Except I watched Hitch over the weekend with Ryan (who has a man crush on Kevin James) and Will Smith's character provided an excellent quote:

"Wake up every morning like it was on purpose".

Instead of doing what I do, which is turn the alarm clock off immediatly and pretending like it didn't wake me up at all. I stay up incredibly late every night because I am anxious for morning, but when my morning begins all I wish to do is sleep.

I must:

1. Sell all of my books so that I can continue the process of completely forgetting the quarter where I took five classes, had one awful political science teacher, had to spend every wednesday with a teacher and two other 29 year old grad students who enjoyed leaving me out of their 'adult' conversations and patronized me. I must!
2. Watch Slumdog Millionaire before one more person tells me I MUST.
3. Figure out what else I am going to do this summer besides taking on two jobs.

Never:

1. Take World Politics 20 unless you enjoy learning about game theory. Unless, unlike me, you are hoping to avoid any class that involves math.
2. Buy challah at Henry's. Because it is not worth 3 dollars and tastes nothing like good challah.
3. Use hebrew prayers on facebook after making derogatory comments towards the jewish religion in middle school. Hypocrisy is not an admirable trait.

I know this may disgusting to some, but I am infatuated with Kanye West and his new lover girl Amber Rose. She is pretty, underneath her intense sunglasses. I feel she is the edgy Kanye is trying so hard to achieve.

All I know is I so far have an A in nonfiction, thought I doubt my other classes will not follow that pattern.